"How you gon' win when you ain't right within?" - Lauryn Hill
We live in tumultuous times. Everyone is looking for someone or something to be offended by. Everyone wants a label to identify with and a new fight to win. And while we have the power to affect change in the world it exhausts us because we're sending all our energy outward instead of inward. Usually the battle we should be fighting is within ourselves.
We all know recently Police Officers have been murdering citizens. How this is anything but an outrage to other American citizens is beyond my understanding, but as a Black Man I had to speak out. I shared my experiences with Police Officers and how I'd been profiled, mistreated, and lied on in court (the Officer, who works for the Court, straight up perjured himself and still won). I knew the system was rigged but every time I talked about it with someone (including other Black people) they told me how I could improve. They flipped it on me and told me how I was prejudiced against cops; that I needed to change.
They were right. In most aspects of my life my Christianity can be noted. I'm not an evangelist. It's not how God uses me. So I don't spend a lot of time ending sentences with "Praise 'im" or use "Jesus" as a tag line (though there was a time when I was young in Christ). Instead most people can tell by my life that something else is up with me, except for when I talked about Police Officers. That's when years of pain and rage from oppression, abuse of power, and socially accepted White Supremacy would come out. After one too many disconnected conversations with people about Racism and Police Brutality, I knew I needed to change something within me before I tried to return balance to a hurting world without.
Our hearts and minds color our perspectives. Everything we hold on to and allow ourselves to believe becomes a part of us and our reality. If we let go... If we turn our power within and heal, then we change our own perspectives and we change our reality. And because we're feeding ourselves love and healing, that well will never run dry; We will no longer tire or grow fatigued. As far as the cops and racism... Well it's easier to fight when you recognize your enemy's fear and hatred and aren't blinded by your own.
Know Thyself; Love Thyself; Heal Thyself. Amen.